Out of the Blue

The unexpected death of my father is still lingering on my mind. It was a shock to me and the pain and loneliness it caused is still there. Today, another life changing event is about to happen as my mother told us that she's retiring as a teacher after thirty five years of service. It came all of a sudden as I and my sister were shocked at what she told us this afternoon. We were stunned at what her decision and couldn't take it out our mind. We will be discussing everything when she returns to work in the evening.
I'm worry about the implications that may arise to this decision especially the loneliness that she may felt when she is alone. On the other hand, it may be for her own good. She's already old and may have some difficulties in handling a class with a large number of pupils. Add the fact that she has some history of being hospitalized due to being diabetic as well as anemic. She may want to retire to rest more and think about her health.
We want her to live longer and to be with us in a longer period of time. If this is what she thinks is right, then I don't have any objections. I only wish that she could return to the strong willed woman that she was.

The Lord's Will

My father passed away before midnight at the age of 61, leaving us in this world to join God our creator. We grieve in sorrow when he left us. Tears won't stop falling; heat aches  and pain are still there in everyone of us family members. I still couldn't believe it myself. It was hard for me going to work and try to act normal as usual but I can't. I manage to hide it all but it feels like it's going to explode inside me. It was both physical and mental torture nonr the less.
But on the other hand, at least his pain had ended. His hardship finished and now free from the sorrow and sadness. I guess it's for the better. It must have been the the Lord's will. Yet I still can't get over it for now. Maybe in time I could accept it.

Hoping for a Miracle

My father is now on the ICU after rushing him on the hospital last Saturday. Is vital signs are becoming weaker and weaker due to infections. He is still fighting so there is still hope. Hope that he gets strong again so we could watch the Pacquiao-Bradley fight next Sunday. But right now, his body is weak. I can't help but think that he is still at a young age yet this event may spell the end bit I hope it doesn't happen. I'm hoping for God to answer our prayers to please make our father well again so we could live with him longer. That I'm hoping and praying.